PTL
Sunday, June 24, 2007
This past week as been one of the most difficult weeks of my life. There haven't been in huge tragedies (other than the passing of IU Football coach, Terry Hoeppner), but everything I've touched has turned into a major project that needs to be revisted at least 5 times before it's done.
It all started with my computer crashing about 2 weeks ago. It is really unbelievable how dependent we are on our computers. Anyway, I had two people look at it, and none of the data from my harddrive was retrievable. My husband told me to buy a new computer, so I am now the proud owner of a MacBook. It's fabulous, easy to learn, etc. But, I'm still trying to get my Quicken files transferred to a Mac format, so until that happens, I still don't feel like I know what's going on with our finances! BUT, Thank God that I do have this new computer.
I met with two Elder Law Attorneys this week to discuss my sister-in-law's (Debby) situation. She is currently in an acute-care facility and will need to be moved to a nursing home. Our goal is to legally move her money so that she can qualify for Medicaid. This is a brand new experience for me, so my brain was completely fried after those two meetings.
THEN, we found out that Debby's medicare DIDN'T go into effect in April like we were originally told. Her Medicare benefits will go into effect in October, so that kink has made it necessary for me to revise the Medicaid plan. I really don't have any mental energy left for that, so I'm hoping to start that process tomorrow.
On top of all of this, I feel like I have been completely alienated by all of my friends. I don't believe it's intentional--more like a comedy of errors. Some are out of town, while others are overwhelmed with their own situations. Put it all together, and I don't have my friends around to encourage or advise me during one of the most difficult weeks of my life. And, let me add, I have been making phone calls to my friends--they are just too busy or unable to call me back.
The end result is that I'm in one of the biggest spiritual funks of my life. I'm grumpy and despondent--as is evidenced by my rant against WalMart in my previous blog.
So, I've been crying out to God. Problem is, my mind is so fried, I don't even know what to pray for. A good friend of mine just reminded me today that the Holy Spirit "groans" on our behalf and Christ intercedes for us. God answered their prayers, because the clouds in my mind and soul have started to clear just enough for me to be able to process things a bit better. While I feel abandoned by my friends, I know that they haven't really abandoned me. I also know that God is ALWAYS there. HE WILL NEVER abandon me. In this crazy world, friends do get busy and unable to help, but God doesn't. That fact is extremely comforting. And, even though things are spinning out of control, God is stil in control, and all of this is somehow part of His perfect plan.
